Even though things are crazy right now, I'm actually exited to use this time to focus on my self and other things. I spent the last few days deep cleaning my room, it was very messy. But now that I have a nice clean space I'm planning on doing some paranormal research and posting for you all!
This month has been and continues to be what will my most packed month of the year. Ive been using my moments of free time to regenerate myself. I've had to make time to light a candle or some incense, read my manifestation book, write intentions for the week. It always seems like we don't have any free time but there is always at least 30 minutes in a day that you can do something for yourself.
I recently started this new class in ethics and philosophy. I have been loving it, mostly because me and several of my class mates talk about supernatural things. Its always exciting to find people who are interested in what you've spent time researching and then sharing it with others. I feel really lucky to have this opportunity to let go and be myself more around unexpected people. There are so many things in this world that are unexplainable, and to hear others people's theories and perspectives help to grow my own. And I can't wait to share some of the theories with you all. HeHeHeHe! Let me tell you all how oh so I excited I am about some of the new Nic nacs I've collected in the last week. First off I totally went to world market yesterday, one of my favorite stores. And low and behold I found incense. Wahoo, incense at a cheap price yes please. So I got 40 sticks of Jasmine, and 20 solar plexus chakra ones. Which I am currently loving the smell of them during in my room! Along with that I finally caved and bought myself two super cute pins. One which happens to be the moon tarot card, and the other an astrology chart. Some times its the little things that make your day oh so much better, and for me that 20 minutes I spent in world market made my week.
We have finally made it to 2020. Wahooooooo! It's a new decade which means a fresh start and time to make what ever you want happen. I'm so excited to see all the life changes that are to come in the next ten years, but i'm even more excited to watch the journey I go on with in the next couple months. In October I was at the craft store looking for constellation stickers, but instead I found my 2020 planner. At the time it still seemed so far away, although it really wasn't. So for my fourth year in a row I have adopted another The Happy Planner. When I found this planner I knew it was the perfect one for my year to come. It has constellations all over the front, with the quote "Keep on dreaming stargazer". Hey, that's me! I'm a stargazer! But on the inside there's a place for me to write monthly intentions and reflect on them. A space for me to write down things I am grateful for, but I especially like the power word, a space to pick a focus for my month. Last year I spent my year focusing a lot on my physical and mental health. Which grew leaps and bounds, I have never been so proud of myself and the person I became. My 2019 planner was all fitness related, where the years prior it focused on the creative part. The amount of stickers I have in stock for planning is insane. But there wasn't much space for that in my planner and having the thrown off aesthetic caused me to stop using it. To my surprise after purchasing my 2020 planner I was shocked to find no weekly layout, but instead 31 clusters of six bullet points. I was slightly bummed to once again not get to use my stickers but in a way also relived. This year is my time to grow my spirituality, something which I have been working on more the last couple months. I found I lost some of it and I am ready to re-enter that zen state of mind. So this year I plan to live by a simplicity that you don't have to go all out to still receive a warranted conclusion.
Throughout life many people will come and go. Each person appears for a purpose and will leave once they have served you. On rare occasion someone will show up for a lifetime and not just a season. You are a tree and you have branches, those branches are the stable people in your life. Such as family members, or your best friend you've had for years. It's very unlikely for one of those branches to die off. Then you have leafs, those are the people who come to you for a season or two. Leafs are the revolving people. My best friends are both branches, the first I've know since the seventh grade and the other since freshman year. They are the first people I go to for anything and everything. But within the last 7 months of my life I received a third best friend. You see at first this person was only meant to be a leaf, but the universe continually tried to convince me they would become a branch. We can't be conscious of our gut 24/7, we often push away feeling we are scared of. Well I'm know for doing that, it's an Aquarius thing. I like every other human is capable of love, and I knew I was falling in love with him. I also knew he had fallen in love with me (Don't worry I didn't just assume he told me). But the interesting part was I wrote an entire notebook to him about how I felt or at least what I thought was my truth. By giving him that notebook I realized I gave away my heart, something which Is awfully scary. Its vulnerability, putting yourself out there for the world to see. But For months I felt like something was missing. The other night he gave me this notebook (I have a slight notebook obsession) and told me to write like I did with my previous one. So at 12:08 in the morning I sat down to write an entire. An hour and ten minutes later I lifted my pen to find six, SIX pages of brain dump. For the first time in almost a year I wrote aimlessly, for the words flowed from my unconscious to my conscious brain to the paper. I wasn't over thinking or restricting, I was accepting a new piece of me. Will this new bud of a branch last a life time, hopefully. Everyone always tells me I see the future, I do indeed agree with that. But sometimes I rather choose to ignore what I already know and let life lead me in the right direction. What meant to happen will, and I trust whatever path life leads me down.
The Holidays are a special time of year when we're supposed to gather with those near to us and show them how much we love them. My whole childhood both Christmas and Thanksgiving was spent just my parents, sister, and I at home. I have no memories of gathering with family for large meals, or driving over to grandmas for extra Christmas gifts. I've always felt the I missed out on those kinds of traditions. But its not like this occurred because my extended family didn't like us. You see both my parents happen to be only children, with one of their parents deceased. And on top of that all of our family lives out of state from us, so we see them once about every two years. The point is one of my life goals is to give my future children those experiences I didn't. I've always been fortunate enough to get most of what I asked for during the holidays, and I was always knew what they actually weren't meant for too. But just now I have felt the weight of wanting to spend the holiday with my friends and family not for the presents. In fact this morning I'd layen out all my gifts ,like normally, but instead all I've done is stair at them. The fact of the matter is there is nothing here in front of me that I actually need, none of it. If it were to all disappear I could go on living my life as normal. But I got lucky to day because after all my contemplation this morning, my best friend came to visit me. My family and I deeply enjoyed his company, those twos hours he was here were by far the best part of my entire holiday season. To be surrounded by people that love you that is what I call true magic.
Merry Christmas - the Aquarius When I was 14 years old I discovered I was an empath. Definition: a person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual. Although I would say over the years I've struggled with it. For much of my teen life I choose to ignore it from time to time, but when ever I would be conscious of my ability my life would get better. I found that excepting what I had was better then keeping it a secret and ignoring it. Throughout 2019 I was privileged enough to have the opportunity to work with a dynamic group of girls. The interesting part is although I worked with them everyday, I happened to know very little about them. Or so I thought. We recently had our Christmas party and after them begging me to bring my tarot cards to any function for months I happened to remember them. I spent 3 hours at this party sitting digging into there minds, telling them about their feelings while reading cards for others in-between. It had been a couple months since I read people for their own knowing. And to my surprise I had never seen these girls so infatuated in me before. You see I always find that the moment I let people see my gifts is when they see me for who I am. Yes I am a extremely quirky girl, I read Tarot and oracle cards for fun, I get into other peoples brains and analyze there life. I went home that night and fell asleep hard, in fact I didn't wake up till lunch. But it was so refreshing to see how something so small I could say could make someone else appreciate my compassion to them. It showed that although I don't always speak my mind, I do see their struggles and I understand how hard it is. My gift can be extremely draining, it takes a lot of effort and I still have no idea if im using it correctly or to its fullest potential. But I do know that I love the feeling of bring magic into someone else's life.
Sincerely- life of an Aquarius Empath Currently I am sitting at my desk. I'm home alone, which is quite a rare thing for me and I started to think this is what life is about. It's those moments where you can sit back and recognize that you just exist. Life is happening all around us, we are constantly on the go. But taking the time to just live in the moment is so important, and taking a moment to sit, stair into space, and let what ever come across your mind is so utterly important. In fact those are some of my favorite moments. The other day some of my friends were introduced to there first hypnosis, they were so amazed by the results they received and the amazing after feeling that the other day when I spent the night with them they asked me to turn one on as we feel asleep. And to be honest that in the moment power became even more real for me then it was before because now I was able to experience the power of letting go and relaxing with other people who had no clue to there new found power. And not even five minutes after the hypnosis started was everyone out. I was amazed, in fact in powered by this feeling of wholeness and existence.
From a young age I've been fascinated with the metaphysical world. I loved ghosts, urban legends, practically anything that had to do with the paranormal was up my alley. The summer before eighth grade my dad and I sat down and watched The Sixth Sense. It was the first "horror" movie I ever saw, and it gave me an idea. I would start a researcher binder. I took my green history binder from the previous school year and turned it into everything I could discover about ghosts. I spent that summer scrolling online reading up on ghosts, I even made my dad take me to the local library so I could check out books to see if I could find any information. My parents did happen to find my obsession quite odd, and warned me that sharing my new found knowledge with my classmates and friends might not be the smartest of ideas. Of course I took my dads advice and understood the consequence that could come out of me sharing this secret with the world, but I didn't really care. I told my friends, team mates, and acquaintances of my ghosts. In fact, I would come to school with my rose quarts pendulum around my neck and research binder in hand. Quickly I became known as the ghost girl. And I liked it. No one expected it to come from me because I still wore my cute little skirts, Hollister t-shirts, and hair bows. My Middle school councilor also happened to be into the same stuff, and she spoke of crystals, manifestation, and thought me about intuition. As I got into high school I expanded my research to other paranormal topics, numerology, astrology, conspiracy theories, mediation, manifestion, tarot, oracle, and the list goes on. Everyday I learn more about life and how to look at it, and I hope to share my perception with you. ~Positive manifestation
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