Throughout life many people will come and go. Each person appears for a purpose and will leave once they have served you. On rare occasion someone will show up for a lifetime and not just a season. You are a tree and you have branches, those branches are the stable people in your life. Such as family members, or your best friend you've had for years. It's very unlikely for one of those branches to die off. Then you have leafs, those are the people who come to you for a season or two. Leafs are the revolving people. My best friends are both branches, the first I've know since the seventh grade and the other since freshman year. They are the first people I go to for anything and everything. But within the last 7 months of my life I received a third best friend. You see at first this person was only meant to be a leaf, but the universe continually tried to convince me they would become a branch. We can't be conscious of our gut 24/7, we often push away feeling we are scared of. Well I'm know for doing that, it's an Aquarius thing. I like every other human is capable of love, and I knew I was falling in love with him. I also knew he had fallen in love with me (Don't worry I didn't just assume he told me). But the interesting part was I wrote an entire notebook to him about how I felt or at least what I thought was my truth. By giving him that notebook I realized I gave away my heart, something which Is awfully scary. Its vulnerability, putting yourself out there for the world to see. But For months I felt like something was missing. The other night he gave me this notebook (I have a slight notebook obsession) and told me to write like I did with my previous one. So at 12:08 in the morning I sat down to write an entire. An hour and ten minutes later I lifted my pen to find six, SIX pages of brain dump. For the first time in almost a year I wrote aimlessly, for the words flowed from my unconscious to my conscious brain to the paper. I wasn't over thinking or restricting, I was accepting a new piece of me. Will this new bud of a branch last a life time, hopefully. Everyone always tells me I see the future, I do indeed agree with that. But sometimes I rather choose to ignore what I already know and let life lead me in the right direction. What meant to happen will, and I trust whatever path life leads me down.
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The Holidays are a special time of year when we're supposed to gather with those near to us and show them how much we love them. My whole childhood both Christmas and Thanksgiving was spent just my parents, sister, and I at home. I have no memories of gathering with family for large meals, or driving over to grandmas for extra Christmas gifts. I've always felt the I missed out on those kinds of traditions. But its not like this occurred because my extended family didn't like us. You see both my parents happen to be only children, with one of their parents deceased. And on top of that all of our family lives out of state from us, so we see them once about every two years. The point is one of my life goals is to give my future children those experiences I didn't. I've always been fortunate enough to get most of what I asked for during the holidays, and I was always knew what they actually weren't meant for too. But just now I have felt the weight of wanting to spend the holiday with my friends and family not for the presents. In fact this morning I'd layen out all my gifts ,like normally, but instead all I've done is stair at them. The fact of the matter is there is nothing here in front of me that I actually need, none of it. If it were to all disappear I could go on living my life as normal. But I got lucky to day because after all my contemplation this morning, my best friend came to visit me. My family and I deeply enjoyed his company, those twos hours he was here were by far the best part of my entire holiday season. To be surrounded by people that love you that is what I call true magic.
Merry Christmas - the Aquarius When I was 14 years old I discovered I was an empath. Definition: a person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual. Although I would say over the years I've struggled with it. For much of my teen life I choose to ignore it from time to time, but when ever I would be conscious of my ability my life would get better. I found that excepting what I had was better then keeping it a secret and ignoring it. Throughout 2019 I was privileged enough to have the opportunity to work with a dynamic group of girls. The interesting part is although I worked with them everyday, I happened to know very little about them. Or so I thought. We recently had our Christmas party and after them begging me to bring my tarot cards to any function for months I happened to remember them. I spent 3 hours at this party sitting digging into there minds, telling them about their feelings while reading cards for others in-between. It had been a couple months since I read people for their own knowing. And to my surprise I had never seen these girls so infatuated in me before. You see I always find that the moment I let people see my gifts is when they see me for who I am. Yes I am a extremely quirky girl, I read Tarot and oracle cards for fun, I get into other peoples brains and analyze there life. I went home that night and fell asleep hard, in fact I didn't wake up till lunch. But it was so refreshing to see how something so small I could say could make someone else appreciate my compassion to them. It showed that although I don't always speak my mind, I do see their struggles and I understand how hard it is. My gift can be extremely draining, it takes a lot of effort and I still have no idea if im using it correctly or to its fullest potential. But I do know that I love the feeling of bring magic into someone else's life.
Sincerely- life of an Aquarius Empath Currently I am sitting at my desk. I'm home alone, which is quite a rare thing for me and I started to think this is what life is about. It's those moments where you can sit back and recognize that you just exist. Life is happening all around us, we are constantly on the go. But taking the time to just live in the moment is so important, and taking a moment to sit, stair into space, and let what ever come across your mind is so utterly important. In fact those are some of my favorite moments. The other day some of my friends were introduced to there first hypnosis, they were so amazed by the results they received and the amazing after feeling that the other day when I spent the night with them they asked me to turn one on as we feel asleep. And to be honest that in the moment power became even more real for me then it was before because now I was able to experience the power of letting go and relaxing with other people who had no clue to there new found power. And not even five minutes after the hypnosis started was everyone out. I was amazed, in fact in powered by this feeling of wholeness and existence.
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